[This part is what he wishes he was there for the most. The moments after he comes, where he could stroke him through, ease him down, pull him to his chest as he comes inside him.
Instead, he finishes himself off alone, his hand a poor replacement for Vanitas' ass.] Love you. [He swallows.] Not just... Always. No matter what. [No matter that they shouldn't do this. No matter that Vanitas is once again playing his games with his partners' hearts.]
[The toy inside him is certainly a poor substitute for Verso's warmth and wetness. There's no satisfying feeling of being filled, no arms to wrap around him kindly and keep him close, nor any kisses to ease him through his climax.
There's only his own hand and Verso's voice, though the latter does a fair job of helping him stroke his way through the aftermath, as sinks down onto the bed with a keening whine and a whimper.] V-Verso... I... I adore you, too... [He never can manage the L-word, no matter how hard he tries. And the only consolation is there's no malice behind his actions; he doesn't mean to let things get to this point. They just... sort of happen.]
[Verso chuckles, and the sound is warm and fond. Vanitas might not be able to bring himself to say he loves Verso — or anyone, as far as Verso knows — but that doesn't mean Verso has doubts about the feelings between them. After all, their connection wouldn't feel anywhere near as strong as it does if he didn't love him. So it's love that Verso pushes down their bond, as well as no small amount of amusement.]
This should be the last time. Keep your promise, mon amour. [Today can be... An exception. A release of frustrations, and a proper farewell, prompted by whatever meddlesome force works behind the Syntrofos.]
[He loves that sound so much. By now it's familiar and welcoming, a piece of this world that's become their home. Just like the outpouring of love and affection he feels through their connection, which he tries to send back in spades, wiped as he is from coming. Though the amusement he feels flusters him slightly, causing his face to heat up beyond simple arousal as he stretches languidly and then hugs a pillow tight.]
I know... Even though I'm a filthy hypocrite, I want to try... [Try to be better than his usual miserable self. The version of him which causes trouble for others and himself.] I'll miss you, though.
[Verso sighs, wishing he was there with him, to pull him close and kiss his smile back into place. But that would be a bad idea. This was too far as it is. To be with Vanitas physically... he's already proven himself weak. That might break him.]
You have me. I won't ever leave you. [That's his promise. Not that they will be intimate sexually, but that he has him: different things.] I'll play for you. [Another, acceptable, way to be intimate.]
[Something that Vanitas himself wishes for, too. He misses those big, strong arms, the warmth of Verso's chest against his, along with the kisses he's always gifted with. But he knows that can't be, not if he's to keep his promise and be faithful. If only he weren't so greedy...]
Verso... [He almost chokes up at those words, but manages to swallow down most of the noise of distress he wants to make. To the point he manages a light laugh, drawing his phone closer, as if that'll bring Verso nearer to him, too.] I'd like that very much. And I'll sing for you. [A gift from him.]
[A truly precious gift.] I'd like that. Best make it soon? [When they're apart for more than a day, Verso finds himself aching for him, and his feet take him to the café, to Vanitas' home, to all the places Vanitas is that Verso can't enter, not without breaking the peace.
Stepping away from his bed, Verso carries his Syntrofos with him to his piano. He stretches. He cracks his knuckles. He puts his fingers to keys.
Picking a delicate tune with one hand, he props his Syntrofos on his chest with the other — about the only perk of that part of his corruption. At this hour, his playing will surely have his neighbours complaining yet again, but at least the melody is something like a lullaby.]
You are always welcome with me. [A fact he's sure Vanitas doesn't understand, but he also doesn't need to understand it for it to be the truth. While they're trapped in this world, Vanitas is his family. He is his home.]
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Instead, he finishes himself off alone, his hand a poor replacement for Vanitas' ass.] Love you. [He swallows.] Not just... Always. No matter what. [No matter that they shouldn't do this. No matter that Vanitas is once again playing his games with his partners' hearts.]
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There's only his own hand and Verso's voice, though the latter does a fair job of helping him stroke his way through the aftermath, as sinks down onto the bed with a keening whine and a whimper.] V-Verso... I... I adore you, too... [He never can manage the L-word, no matter how hard he tries. And the only consolation is there's no malice behind his actions; he doesn't mean to let things get to this point. They just... sort of happen.]
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This should be the last time. Keep your promise, mon amour. [Today can be... An exception. A release of frustrations, and a proper farewell, prompted by whatever meddlesome force works behind the Syntrofos.]
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I know... Even though I'm a filthy hypocrite, I want to try... [Try to be better than his usual miserable self. The version of him which causes trouble for others and himself.] I'll miss you, though.
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You have me. I won't ever leave you. [That's his promise. Not that they will be intimate sexually, but that he has him: different things.] I'll play for you. [Another, acceptable, way to be intimate.]
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Verso... [He almost chokes up at those words, but manages to swallow down most of the noise of distress he wants to make. To the point he manages a light laugh, drawing his phone closer, as if that'll bring Verso nearer to him, too.] I'd like that very much. And I'll sing for you. [A gift from him.]
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Stepping away from his bed, Verso carries his Syntrofos with him to his piano. He stretches. He cracks his knuckles. He puts his fingers to keys.
Picking a delicate tune with one hand, he props his Syntrofos on his chest with the other — about the only perk of that part of his corruption. At this hour, his playing will surely have his neighbours complaining yet again, but at least the melody is something like a lullaby.]
You are always welcome with me. [A fact he's sure Vanitas doesn't understand, but he also doesn't need to understand it for it to be the truth. While they're trapped in this world, Vanitas is his family. He is his home.]