[He exhales heavily, trying to cool his face somehow as he nods.]
If you say so... I don't want you feeling left out. [That makes his ear flick, ticklish, before he makes a quiet noise somewhere between a whine and a moan. Aether is always so gentle with him, making him feel special and treasured. He can't help wondering if he's able to do the same in return.]
I have an idea for the earrings. I've been wanting to use those feathers you gave me - I could turn them into jewelry.
[The kisses to the neck don't stop. If anything, a hand reaches to Vanitas' collar, pushing his shirt a bit to expose more of his lover's skin and continue on there. He only pauses to respond to Vanitas' words.]
So you'd like to make earrings out of me?
[His voice is amused.]
I'm joking. I'll be honoured if a piece of me is always with you. And if none of the feather you already have work, you can pick more.
[It's as if Aether is trying to fluster him, sheesh...! Because it's working. But he's still not complaining, only growing more obliging by the moment as he melts to the kisses. Though having his idea put like that has him laughing weakly.]
I guess you could say so...
[Ruffles his hair!! Jerk!]
I mean, if you didn't want me to... [Now it's his turn to tease. Though he takes the opportunity to brush a hand through Aether's wings, petting them.] It seemed a better idea than just letting it sit in a box.
[Huffy!! At least he keeps on petting Aether's wings, because honestly, they're so soft he just wants to bury himself in them and sleep. His own personal bed...]
T-That's... It wasn't hard to do...
[He's collecting the things that mean something to him from those he's formed attachments to, and feathers are pretty and versatile.]
[It's adorable how much Vanitas is huffing... Thinks the guy who doesn't like getting teased, but loves teasing.]
I see. I'm glad you kept them.
[He nuzzles against his lover's neck, before placing a tiny kiss there.]
It's a bit of a shame Vince doesn't have feathers, too... But It's also easier to clean like this. [Aether keeps dropping those feathers here and there.]
[Wow, hypocrite much, Aether?? But no, it's fine. Vanitas loves him for it despite getting uppity.]
They were a gift from you, so...
[Of course he would treasure them and value each one. Just as he savors each kiss with a light shiver, craning his head to welcome more of the affection.]
Heh, yeah, that would be nice, huh? Even if it meant more work. I started just using a broom to make the job easier. [Gathering them up goes faster now!]
[The gentle affection to his hand gets a loving smile. Maybe it's silly, but he can't get enough of this kind of tender touch. The press of the lips leaves his skin pleasantly tingling.]
So then you could sleep on me all the time.
[His voice is as playful, but he thinks the idea is nice. His feathers are very soft, it would be a waste not to use them somehow.]
[It's a rare thing for Vanitas to be so sweetly affectionate, but the closer he gets to perishing, the more he wants to show those close to him how much he appreciates them.]
That's the idea. I wouldn't need to disturb you to feel like you're always here with me.
[Something that he'll love even more when sick and dying, he knows. Or even just if Aether is busy.]
Maybe I'm used to having someone by my side. [He says with a smile.] My sister was always with me and... later Paimon would always accompany me everywhere.
[Completely the opposite from him, who has been forever alone since early days. Hence why he gets so overwhelmed sometimes now, with so many people and so much love. It gets to be too much.]
I'm glad you didn't have to handle everything by yourself, at least. You don't deserve that hardship.
I can handle a lot on my own, you know? It's perfectly fine.
[Despite the company of friends and other people, Aether tends to take everything on himself. It's this persistent belief that he's fine, that he can push away any negative thoughts and no matter the hardships, he will prevail.
But it does make him feel lonely, even when amongst the people he cares about so dearly.
The recent events with Vanitas and Vincent showed him, though, that it's fine if he's lost and seeks help, even if it's a difficult thing to do for him.]
[He notes the change curiously, wondering if something he said had inadvertently hurt Aether.]
I know. You're amazing in that regard. But that doesn't mean I want you to endure difficult times alone.
[There's no reason for him to burden himself with everyone's problems while ignoring his own needs and desires. It doesn't matter if they're small or trivial, he should have someone by his side to provide encouragement and support. It's something Vanitas tries to do, too, but he knows he's rather shit at it.
Sighing quietly, he strokes Aether's hair.]
I apologize if it seemed like I was patronizing you.
[Curious, he peers at Aether. It's true the other doesn't frequently come to them with concerns, although perhaps that's because Vanitas has been oblivious to how much his lover might be struggling.]
You don't have to force yourself if you're not comfortable doing so. There's always time for you to speak your mind when you're ready.
[Meaning that he'll be waiting for the day when Aether confides in him about those deeper, darker troubles. For now, however, he simply pets the other's hair, toying lightly with his braid.]
Yeah. It's alright to go slowly. [Even if he know that to Aether, time marches on very differently from those like himself, who have maybe only a few years left in them.
But that's for another time. Right now, he's trying to convey that Aether shouldn't feel obligated to do what others want him to do.]
That would be a good idea, heh... You take on so much, try to save everyone... But who will save you if you don't let them in? [He doesn't want Aether to either burn out or fall from the sky.]
I know you and Vince, and all my friends would do whatever it takes to save me.
[He knows, he really does... So why there's still some doubt in his heart sometimes? That they don't care enough to truly understand what he needs and wants? Maybe he's just selfish, wishing for someone to read his mind when in reality it's not even needed, because he's the one who doesn't allow others to truly know him.
We would. You're precious to us. All of them, I'm sure.
[Since he can't speak for each of Aether's friends, only the few he knows. Like Xiao. He knows that man would go to the ends of the earth for Aether, and then some, just as he and Vince would. Though there still seems to be a bit of sadness in his lover, which worries Vanitas. He doesn't quite understand where it's stemming from, and thus has no idea how to help. He doesn't like feeling powerless like this. It reminds him too much of his time years ago when he had no control over his life, when Moreau dictated everything.
[The question makes him pause for much longer than it should. Aether looks away for a moment, like he doesn't want to see disappointment in Vanitas' eyes.]
I'm... trying to be more open about it. [He frowns to himself.] It's... not that easy.
[It's during that lull that Vanitas' expression falls slightly. Yet he can understand what it's like, to not be able to ask for something as simple as the consideration that one needs. So he merely laughs quietly, even if it's a touch bitter.]
...no, no it's not. But then, what in life that's worthwhile is?
[After all, he's hardly the pinnacle of forthrightness, himself.]
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If you say so... I don't want you feeling left out. [That makes his ear flick, ticklish, before he makes a quiet noise somewhere between a whine and a moan. Aether is always so gentle with him, making him feel special and treasured. He can't help wondering if he's able to do the same in return.]
I have an idea for the earrings. I've been wanting to use those feathers you gave me - I could turn them into jewelry.
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So you'd like to make earrings out of me?
[His voice is amused.]
I'm joking. I'll be honoured if a piece of me is always with you. And if none of the feather you already have work, you can pick more.
[His wings move at that, as if offered.]
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I guess you could say so...
[Ruffles his hair!! Jerk!]
I mean, if you didn't want me to... [Now it's his turn to tease. Though he takes the opportunity to brush a hand through Aether's wings, petting them.] It seemed a better idea than just letting it sit in a box.
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I think it's a good idea.
[His wings only move more into his touch like a cat asking for being petted more.]
You really kept all my feathers?
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[Huffy!! At least he keeps on petting Aether's wings, because honestly, they're so soft he just wants to bury himself in them and sleep. His own personal bed...]
T-That's... It wasn't hard to do...
[He's collecting the things that mean something to him from those he's formed attachments to, and feathers are pretty and versatile.]
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I see. I'm glad you kept them.
[He nuzzles against his lover's neck, before placing a tiny kiss there.]
It's a bit of a shame Vince doesn't have feathers, too... But It's also easier to clean like this. [Aether keeps dropping those feathers here and there.]
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They were a gift from you, so...
[Of course he would treasure them and value each one. Just as he savors each kiss with a light shiver, craning his head to welcome more of the affection.]
Heh, yeah, that would be nice, huh? Even if it meant more work. I started just using a broom to make the job easier. [Gathering them up goes faster now!]
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Aether gives a soft "hm" noise as he leaves another kiss upon his lover's skin. His hand reaches for Vanitas to hold it, fingers intertwined.]
I need to help you out with cleaning them up. I'm leaving them all over the place.
[It's not right that Vanitas ends up cleaning them all alone.]
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Chuckling a bit, Vanitas takes hold of Aether's hand and guides it to his lips, brushing over it softly.]
I won't say no. I've been meaning to make them into pillows. Heh.
[Is he teasing or serious... He certainly seems to be completely committed to the idea.]
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So then you could sleep on me all the time.
[His voice is as playful, but he thinks the idea is nice. His feathers are very soft, it would be a waste not to use them somehow.]
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That's the idea. I wouldn't need to disturb you to feel like you're always here with me.
[Something that he'll love even more when sick and dying, he knows. Or even just if Aether is busy.]
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[There's another kiss planted on Vanitas' skin, right to his cheek, then again to his neck.]
But I like the idea of always being by your side in some way.
[As long as it brings his lover comfort, especially in these difficult times. Aether can't forget about the spectral death looming over his partner.]
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[At least, he thinks everyone must feel like that now and then. Though the kisses make it difficult to think that way right now.]
Mmm... You've always been a comfort to me, ever since the beginning.
[It's one reason he treasures Aether so much. He's always made sure to never let him feel like he's going through things alone.]
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That's true, but...
[He doesn't like being alone.]
Maybe I'm used to having someone by my side. [He says with a smile.] My sister was always with me and... later Paimon would always accompany me everywhere.
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[Completely the opposite from him, who has been forever alone since early days. Hence why he gets so overwhelmed sometimes now, with so many people and so much love. It gets to be too much.]
I'm glad you didn't have to handle everything by yourself, at least. You don't deserve that hardship.
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I can handle a lot on my own, you know? It's perfectly fine.
[Despite the company of friends and other people, Aether tends to take everything on himself. It's this persistent belief that he's fine, that he can push away any negative thoughts and no matter the hardships, he will prevail.
But it does make him feel lonely, even when amongst the people he cares about so dearly.
The recent events with Vanitas and Vincent showed him, though, that it's fine if he's lost and seeks help, even if it's a difficult thing to do for him.]
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I know. You're amazing in that regard. But that doesn't mean I want you to endure difficult times alone.
[There's no reason for him to burden himself with everyone's problems while ignoring his own needs and desires. It doesn't matter if they're small or trivial, he should have someone by his side to provide encouragement and support. It's something Vanitas tries to do, too, but he knows he's rather shit at it.
Sighing quietly, he strokes Aether's hair.]
I apologize if it seemed like I was patronizing you.
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No... No, it's not that.
[He rests his head against his lover's shoulder, letting him stroke his hair as much as he wishes.]
I... realized I'm not really good at opening up about my own worries.
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You don't have to force yourself if you're not comfortable doing so. There's always time for you to speak your mind when you're ready.
[Meaning that he'll be waiting for the day when Aether confides in him about those deeper, darker troubles. For now, however, he simply pets the other's hair, toying lightly with his braid.]
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When I'm ready... [It may take a long time before that happens and Aether doesn't exactly want to think about it.
He closes his eyes, enjoying the way Vanitas plays with his hair.]
Maybe I need to stop thinking I can handle everything by myself. [It's a soft murmur more than anything else.]
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But that's for another time. Right now, he's trying to convey that Aether shouldn't feel obligated to do what others want him to do.]
That would be a good idea, heh... You take on so much, try to save everyone... But who will save you if you don't let them in? [He doesn't want Aether to either burn out or fall from the sky.]
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I know you and Vince, and all my friends would do whatever it takes to save me.
[He knows, he really does... So why there's still some doubt in his heart sometimes? That they don't care enough to truly understand what he needs and wants? Maybe he's just selfish, wishing for someone to read his mind when in reality it's not even needed, because he's the one who doesn't allow others to truly know him.
He needs to open his heart.]
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We would. You're precious to us. All of them, I'm sure.
[Since he can't speak for each of Aether's friends, only the few he knows. Like Xiao. He knows that man would go to the ends of the earth for Aether, and then some, just as he and Vince would. Though there still seems to be a bit of sadness in his lover, which worries Vanitas. He doesn't quite understand where it's stemming from, and thus has no idea how to help. He doesn't like feeling powerless like this. It reminds him too much of his time years ago when he had no control over his life, when Moreau dictated everything.
So instead, he tries reaching out.]
...you'd say so if you needed something, right?
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I'm... trying to be more open about it. [He frowns to himself.] It's... not that easy.
[He's so used to keeping to himself.]
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...no, no it's not. But then, what in life that's worthwhile is?
[After all, he's hardly the pinnacle of forthrightness, himself.]
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